I am a monthly blogger. My intentions are nobel, but time, as of late, is not on my side. Having all the time in the world it seems at the beginning of the month, or even the week...it's not until I am in the middle of it pondering where the time went...did I blink and the world passed by without my knowledge? Not quite, I was knee deep in juggling family, work and friends and of course ME time. So important but so easily and quickly forgotten and left on the sideline.
We're already halfway through the summer...yaya...not quite, but just blink and it will be mid-august. So, can we slow down the time and breathe more deeply? I think so, it's all about priorities and not making excuses for what's important. To remember that the coffee break you planned on taking with a friend, although it seems like a big deal, is after all going to be the most important 15 minutes of your day. That the bus ride home doesn't have to be a waste of time, and instead, that's the ME time I've longed for, to sit and read my book and let the world go by outside the window. The moments stuck in traffic can be better spent at home is true, but crank up the volume on the stereo and tap the steering wheel with your thumb and hum along to your favourite track...it's worth it...destressing is equally important and by the time traffic lets up, you'll be in a better space and your family will thank you for it.
Of course doing all this takes practice and goes against my every instinct and the person I am so used to being...impatient, stubborn, temperamental...but if I just take a second, I will ultimately see that I am better off not yelling at the ignorant driver to my left who almost took my front bumper out because he was in a hurry to get a carlength ahead of me...it's not important.
What's important is my sanity, that I remember that no matter when I walk through that door, life is what's important and those who depend on me will have survived, and the small stuff that I bother with daily, isn't that important on the grand scheme of life...I am important. My life is important. I am living it...the way I want, with minimal stressors and minimal annoyance...but it's not to say that I won't ever provoke a conversation that will lead into a full blown battle, everyone needs to let off some steam sometimes...it's healthy...but perhaps my subjects should be choosen more carefully...and not random people on the other end of the phone unbeknownst of my need to vent. So here's an apology to those that cross my path when I am feeling feisty
