I can't believe it's been a month since I last posted something! Not acceptable for a blogger...but then again, I've been busy writing and starting a business with a friend of mine. It's been a crazy time in my life, but on the most part I am excited about the changes, and although I sometimes face a storm head-on, I am digging my heals in and try desperately to remain calm and levelled heaeded. Changes frighten me, and I believe that if they didn't, we are not true to them. Changes are an important part of life and it's not always something we can understand or make others understand. When life throws you a bone, grab it! but the consequences may not always suit everyone around you. I believe that you are stronger for doing what makes you feel good, and what makes you grow as a person, rather than putting your head down and not following your "aha!" - moment. What's important to remember, is staying true to yourself. Not looking to replace something, or someone but to find a path that's only for you. I find it difficult sometimes to see the path that's just mine. It's so full of other people's footprints that has gone before me, and who are currently walking beside me, behind me or infront of me. It sometimes gets really muddy, and I loose sight of my own path as it merges with the paths of others.
As a mother I think it's even more difficult to follow your own path that has been laid out for you. You instinctively want to bend your path to make it that of your child's so as not to distrupt or misguide the choices they make, or make choices for them. And sometimes, even though the path is clear of debris, it still is hard to walk on because what feels right, doesn't always seem right to those watching your progress.
The path I am on now is taking me places I haven't been before. It's bringing back memories long lost, it's showing me a future I don't know how to reach, and a present that's comfortable and known.
I take one step, then another...here we go...
But at my back I always hear
Time's winged chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
-Andrew Marvell
